Somewhere in between…

Is it just me, mind all over the place, not sure if your happy or sad? I don’t generally feel sad but I feel like I’m on some neutral ground. I’m hovering right in between in the purgatory of life. I don’t know where I am or what I am or where my place is supposed to be. I am just gliding with life day by day kind of existing. 

I feel like I could be in a stage of reflection where I’m supposed to be evaluating it all. Maybe I’m not happy or sad. Maybe I’m just mid transformation and its part of the changing leaves and the season. Something big may be coming. Life may be about to bring opportunity and excitement to my life. I feel like that’s going to happen. I’ve felt it for a while now. I’m ready for it to grace me with its presence so I can embrace it all.  

 I could be totally wrong though. I don’t know where the hell I am. Am I supposed to be doing something? Am I supposed to be focusing on something and working hard to get somewhere? I just don’t know where that is. Most people can tell you exactly where they want to be in 5-10 years. Most women can tell you exactly what they picture their wedding to be like. Actually, they have known every detail since they were much younger. However, I can’t tell you those things. I just don’t know. I don’t know what my wedding will be like. I don’t know what future I want. There were times in the past where I had direction and goals and I worked hard and achieved them. Now, I don’t know where to go next. There are some things I want but nothing I’m so crazy about.  

 I just want to know, where I am? Am I happy, am I sad, or am I just stuck somewhere in between, waiting for what’s about to launch? 



Changing leaves

I realized something last night,while walking with my son, mind racing and trying to keep up with my thoughts. My almost 3 year old was asking tons of questions, as he always is inquisitive and eager to learn. He asked about the different kinds of leaves and why they were on the floor. So I realized oh yes that’s right it’s fall season coming up so the leaves will change. I got to explain to him that he will see all the leaves changing colors over the course of the fall season and how all the leaves will fall to the ground. I explained the term, “turning over a new leaf” which was inspired by the process of fall. It is ridding all of the old and starting a new. It suddenly hit me as I was explaining to my son, who was fascinated by this, that this is what I am experiencing myself. I don’t know if everyone is into the planets and cosmic energy. if not, absolutely check out Elizabeth Peru, who you can follow on Facebook. I was following her on FB for some time and would scroll past her name and read what she had to say. It always caught my attention and always was true and completely on point. I ended up subscribing to her weekly tipoff which gives you full detail for the week ahead, how the planets will be aligned, which are going retrograde etc. it honestly is amazing and a year later, I can see the change, I’ve come a very long way and uncovered so much about myself.


It was there with my son that I thought about it and saw that I was following the same process, direction, Plan or whatever you want to call it. The last few weeks my mind has been nonstop. I think I thought about my entire life. I’m not exaggerating. It’s like I did an evaluation of my life and was able to see what I grew from, what I learned, what my good qualities were, what I need to rid.  I’m currently still in this state. I wonder how many others are going through it and then again how many others are but not aware of it. I feel like the Fall is our new year, not January. Unless, fall is the entire transformation and New Years is eve you are finally complete? I don’t know. I’m just writing my train of thought. What I do know is, this is a powerful time right now and over the next few weeks. This is the time to reflect on your life. You can reflect on the entire thing, let your mind do its thing and go into what it wants to go into. Using a notebook during this whole process is great too. If you want to start light, then take this last year and look back to where you were last September and think of the things you learned, the accomplishments that you made and anything that made you grow. Write it down and when things randomly pop in your head, over the next few weeks, write that down too. Take 5-10 minutes a day to sit nice and relaxed and check in with yourself, take some time to take a couple deep deep breaths, think of what makes you happy and just sit reflecting on those things and smile. If you want to take it further and have the time, you can lay back with your eyes closed and some soothing music (you can get on pandora under meditation music or just type it into google and a million things pop up) and just let go.


Take this time now, this season,to reflect, to grow and reveal a new you. Show gratitude for what you have received , learned or accomplished. Take your struggles and use it as fuel to emerge into your new self. Nothing and nobody has power over you. It may feel like that but it’s not the truth. The truth is, your own mind,you decide.

Love and light


Al Bloggers, what advice/tips do you have for a virgin blogger?

I created my blog years ago but never could get the words onto the screen. Talk about writers block!

I am am now going for it and would really like to put all that I have learned, all of my skills and all that I hold inside of me, which would greatly help others, into the blog world. The thing that stops me, basically ALL OF THE TIME, is being a virgin to this and when I look at other blogs seeing how amazing they are and structured.  Most of your blogs are like art, when I click on them (which by the way, I haven’t gotten into following people or writing on blogs, which I would definitely like to. I’m not exactly sure how to do all of that yet. If you can follow me or give me some of your expert advice, I would love to meet new bloggers that I can follow). They are just designed beautifully and there is so many things you can do with colors and adding photos or other media. All I know right now is how to create one where I write the title, write up the blog and can add a photo into it. That’s literally it! I appreciate any help that is thrown my way.


I would like for people to click on my blog and eventually for it to be like yours, a piece of art. I would like for people to open up my page and for it to immediately deliver its effect, where you can sense what my approach is and what my page is about. For example: my page is to ultimately help people. I want to deliver peace into people’s lives, give them a different way of thinking to ease their mind, some coping strategies, some real talk about difficulties I have faced where people can relate, to help others with behaviors their children have or disabilities they have that parents find themselves stuck communicating with their children, as if they speak two different languages, to help people with mental illness or a heavy heart. I want to heal people mind body and soul.

Do do you have any advice for me (whether it’s about my public picture for my site, articles I should write or how to title them, things I should add to my page, any sites I should join to help me in the blog world, just basically anything related to blogging for someone that is so completely new and blogging is a foreign language to)?


Thank you you for taking the time to read this blog.

Love and light ,


I saw homeless ppl young and knew then I wanted to help people forever

a happy time of homeless people

to help others. As a child, I always wanted to help the homeless, feed them, take them home. I was absolutely fascinated by them. I went away with my family once and they gave me one of those throw away cameras and I remember taking all of these pictures and my mother developed them and threw them away because she thought there was something wrong with me. All of my pictures were of homeless men, women and children living in the streets. I had pictures of their clothing, where they slept and all the different types of homeless people I saw. I remember wanting to help them and being so upset that my mother threw out my pictures. we were in Baltimore for 4 days and that was my whole trip. To me, that was what I would take with me. it is something I have remembered my whole life. I couldn’t even tell you one thing other than that from that vacation My eye was only in one direction, people in need, and I have never steered from that path.

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How to raise a child

Libero newborn baby – SCA

Raising a child or family–This should be a mandatory course in school or through hospitals after delivery for a certain length of time

I think this is extremely important because life is precious and so many lives are destroyed and kids are being tortured by parents who just don’t know the damage they are causing and what it will lead to in the future. We need a license to operate a vehicle, but nobody needs anything to raise a child. A person can give birth and tie their child in the backyard for ten years and torture them and nobody knows about it. There are also minor things parents do that have such detrimental effects on children later in life. we are all human beings and some people really don’t know what to do with a child. I think this course would provide the information every person will need to know in their life. Even if a person never has a child or a family, I think in everyday life this will still benefit them in dealing with society ad other people’s children.

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Just the beginning

So here it goes………

This is just the beginning of many words, thoughts, advice and some real good therapy for all those tortured souls out there.  Lets face it, this world, well it can torture anyone.  I’m here just to ease the load a little.

I’m a behavioral therapist who has worked for the Developmentally disabled and mentally ill ————————————to just regular people with general anxiety and fears.  I have dealt with it all.  Furthermore, I have encountered a lot in my life and have a very spiritual, optimistic side to me that knows how to keep on fighting, even when there are no answers or ways out of horrible situations.

I have a lot in store and am just building this, but if you come across my page and have any concerns or issues-feel free to subscribe and I will be here to help heal your mind.